second blog and still ill, the flu has engolfed my whole being, and am feeling extrememly sorry for myself now!
Yesterday i thought i would struggle into work as life as a garment tech is never a easy one, and if i didnt get my work up to date, no one else would and would come into carnage on the Monday! Getting onto the train feeling very fragile and vunruble i was hustled and bustled out of the way untill every seat was taken and realised i would have to stand the whole way :( I did my best to look ill, but to no avail ! Arriving at work everyone took one look at my face and told me to go home, so must of been looking very glamorous! The day past quite painlessly and leaving early i felt a little more full of energy so called up my close friend Sam and told her i was coming to see her.
Sam was a sort of single mum, well i say sort of she is the kind of poor victim who cooked, cleaned and doted on the father of her child who did actually live with them, but unfortunately he contributed nothing financially, emotionally and was rarely in, so she might as well be single, anyway i wont go into that now or you will be here all day!!
So as usual Sam was picking up little Lea from Nursery as other half Jerome was off doing tings??
We went back to hers and she cooked for us all, Leah entertained me as only a 2 year old could with songs and funny noises with the odd tantrum thrown in, Sam spoke of looking forward to christmas and all the plans for the coming weeks, when it dawned on me, i have never dreaded christmas so much in all my life! I am 32, alone, no kids, no husband and the only family i have is my mother for company, i mean bless her heart she is probably feeling the same! But i really really need to sort out my life next year so that i never have to dread christmas this much again!