second blog and still ill, the flu has engolfed my whole being, and am feeling extrememly sorry for myself now!
Yesterday i thought i would struggle into work as life as a garment tech is never a easy one, and if i didnt get my work up to date, no one else would and would come into carnage on the Monday! Getting onto the train feeling very fragile and vunruble i was hustled and bustled out of the way untill every seat was taken and realised i would have to stand the whole way :( I did my best to look ill, but to no avail ! Arriving at work everyone took one look at my face and told me to go home, so must of been looking very glamorous! The day past quite painlessly and leaving early i felt a little more full of energy so called up my close friend Sam and told her i was coming to see her.
Sam was a sort of single mum, well i say sort of she is the kind of poor victim who cooked, cleaned and doted on the father of her child who did actually live with them, but unfortunately he contributed nothing financially, emotionally and was rarely in, so she might as well be single, anyway i wont go into that now or you will be here all day!!
So as usual Sam was picking up little Lea from Nursery as other half Jerome was off doing tings??
We went back to hers and she cooked for us all, Leah entertained me as only a 2 year old could with songs and funny noises with the odd tantrum thrown in, Sam spoke of looking forward to christmas and all the plans for the coming weeks, when it dawned on me, i have never dreaded christmas so much in all my life! I am 32, alone, no kids, no husband and the only family i have is my mother for company, i mean bless her heart she is probably feeling the same! But i really really need to sort out my life next year so that i never have to dread christmas this much again!

God i hate the flu

I woke early this morning feeling like my throat had been welded together and my head was going to explode, i grappled around in my bed for my mobile to ring the boss to let him know that i cant make it out of bed, let alone travel to work, when he eventually answered i opened my mouth but only a squeak came out, i eventually got out in a deep man/beast voice that i felt awful and i would see him tomorrow. I lay there feeling very sorry for myself not only that i felt ill, but there was no-one to whinge at that i felt so ill! Drifting in and and out of a sickly slumber Jeremy Kyle woke me up shouting at one of his many unfortunate guests. Looking out the window I suddenly realised "Ive got a day off wohoo" i started planning in my head to go Christmas shopping, meeting one of the girls for lunch wow the worlds my oyster??? But as i threw the quilt off me dizziness set in and i realised i wasn't going anywhere and i had a bit of a problem, i had a head that was pounding, and it felt like someone was stabbing me in the left eye and no medication anywhere in the flat? This is when you need a man or a mother that lives near by, or friends that don't work!
Suddenly having a bright spark idea that i don't need tablets oh no, i must have something around the flat somewhere that can take this pain away, let me see......Vic's hmmmm no, Vaseline....no, indigestion relief......damn it nothing, oh my god i was going to dye of a cold and headache right here and no one will realise till at least a couple of days, and by then the mad man living downstairs will probably of eaten me!
At 4 i realised no one was going to come and save me and i was going to have to walk (all by myself) to the corner shop and be a adult about things. I found my baseball cap threw on my tracksuit and walked very slowly there, got my life saving tablets and walked home. New Years resolution 1. find a man to get my tablets for me when I'm sick!